The mystic vs. the maniac: every day atrocities are committed in the name of faith. But as Susan Neville reminds us, it's possible to distinguish between the fires of fanaticism and the abiding glow of our better angels.

Publication: O, The Oprah Magazine

Publication Date: 01-MAY-07

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"A certain tendency to insanity has always attended the opening of the religious sense in men, as if they had been 'blasted with excess of light.'"

--Ralph Waldo Emerson

MY NEIGHBOR HAS COVERED A PILE OF FIREWOOD WITH A sheet of milky plastic that catches the breeze like a pale silk parachute.

Please notice I said "like." I know it isn't a parachute. I also know it isn't silk, though I'm not absolutely sure it's plastic. I haven't looked at it up close. I don't want to spoil the illusion. Because every single morning when the sun hits it, I'm startled by the beauty of the thing, by the way it seems to radiate a shimmering, shifting light. At night it's even better. The woodpile is situated beneath a house lamp that comes on when the sun goes down. When that happens, the billowing plastic becomes an opalescent pearl. And every single night, I think: Angel!

I could almost worship this firewood covering, if I were looking for that kind of miracle. But in the second it takes me to go through the mind's first drafts--parachute? silk? pearl? angel?--a different section of my brain takes over and says, Plastic: not a thing to waste your time on.

So much work goes on in the brain to keep us located in the world of familiar objects rather than the world of angels.

I'm conscious of the brain's hard work because I'm a writer, and--in writing as in life--those initial drafts, those momentary mistakes, are the source of mystery and wonder; they force you to stop sleepwalking and pay attention. And I'm conscious that I think angel, parachute, and silk...

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