On being discovered: as a writer, I found it carries risks.

GROWING UP A BROWN GIRL in the white Midwest, I never saw a single book by a South Asian American writer. I visited the library almost weekly, tore through Nancy Drew and the Hardy Boys, ventured into the adult sections and occasionally happened upon that rare treasure, a novel by a writer of color: The Color Purple, for instance. But mostly, the stacks were unrelentingly white. Ethnic literature, it seemed, was as marginal as I was.

Twenty years later, the lit biz has discovered both readers and writers of color. A new ethnic trend sweeps through commercial publishing every few years: the Dominicans and Haitians had their day, followed by writers of Vietnamese, Latino, South Asian and now Middle Eastern descent. I hear Pacific Islanders--or maybe Tibetans--are the next big thing. Though white writers still make up the largest proportion of those published in the United States, I hope, perhaps naively, that our national library is becoming richer with each market-driven wave.

Still, there is something decidedly odd about the moment of discovery, when you are not Columbus but the Indian.

I was "discovered," after eight years as a journalist, poet and performer, when I began shopping a book proposal around New York. Indo-American fiction had just made the great leap from obscure ethnic lit to potential profit machine. Everyone was looking for the next Jhumpa Lahiri, whose book received the Pulitzer Prize in 2000. As I met with assorted literary people, I knew I was lucky. What I wanted to write coincided with the industry fervor--almost.

One agent thought my planned nonfiction saga about my family and the Indian diaspora had too many characters with too many difficult names; I should take some out, and then the agent would be very interested. Another said she could make me the voice of my generation. All that was required, she thought, was that I make it a memoir. And--could I focus it on the U.S. and leave out some of the other, less important countries?

The voice of my generation. It was a seductive idea; I would be on talk shows, consulted by prime ministers, idolized by thousands of readers and would-be writers. But almost immediately, it was oppressive: what responsibility, what weight! It was enough to take on the task of finding my own authentic voice, buffeted by internal criticism and doubt; How could I ...