REEXPERIENCING LANGUAGE ,AS A MUSIC REVISITED.

Take 3/Roll 3 [1]

Trips 1 & 2

"begins:"

As THESIS unrolls, a reverberant voice--of unmediated inner experience--is overheard: worldforming, giving birth to consciousness and language; neither incoherent nor non-cognitive yet not yet cohering as 'meaning'; not yet identifiable or measurable in units or as qualities: "in specious increments attaching"; neither naming nor calling; 'here' and nor-'here'; inchoate 'it' and not-yet 'thing'; not yet 'referring to'; a feedback of whatever is in process of forming--consciousness, language, meaning, allusion; wanting to express the "vanished traces of elusive experience," [2] worldforming which "begins," again and again with the evolving accumulated experience of earlier beginnings entwined within; fully formed verbal language--language in order to speak with and to oneself--not yet the bedrock of experience; born from within, fusing interior with exterior; out of the confrontation of in-thing with out-thing. 'reference' gets to make it as language; language and meaning arise with the delivery of reference.

THESIS imagines awareness of those somethings called language and music; how, in a not-yet supra-stage of consciousness, I might take in and process sensory and sensual experience "without benefit of theory"; any some thing not yet any thing in particular, not yet belonging to a, not yet a member of a, 'group' or 'class,' not yet named or termed or defined or associated with; how for a time I might take in what there is to be taken in 'pre-articulately,' "nowhere metabounded"; moving from "noworld" to "worldnow"; at best at first I am, it is, uncertain, wideopen.

THESIS is about time, about not-yet qualified 'things' originating and arising in their own particular singular unitary time and place; an about-ness characterized by time-marking and place-changing modifiers, a profusion of 'withins, betweens, befores, sooners, laters'; about how as time goes on 'awarehood' of how from some "firstindexed moment" then and now and was and has been are received, perceived, recalled--from "metabounded nowhere" to "metabonded herenow"; is of Experience speaking pronounless: there is no I or we or you (for a long time an absence I was unaware of), an absence enabling listeners to get 'into' what is being said about what is being sensed, unhindered by who is speaking to whom, in the best possible yet least palpable dimension: time; in the time of its own time; in time-meaning utterances, in everyday words and in struggling-to-be&mean&relate-to words expressly madeup for the occasion:

from now was begins then emerging